Saturday, May 17, 2008

Are u the people of R.O.C?????

Are u the people of R.O.C ?????
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這一個星期幾乎都在忙著處理一個「無戶籍之國民」的狀況。在這之前,我一直覺得華僑很不錯,從小看著國家慶典,總是會特別報導著歸國華僑參與的盛況,好像那是十分殊榮的身份。不過在這一個星期下來,完完全全推翻之前那天真的想法,反倒覺得,他們,似乎可以說是【國際孤兒】!也許並不是每一個華僑均是國際孤兒,但是,在臺灣出現的「無戶籍之國民」,可以說有九成以上就是華僑!

「無戶籍之國民」,到底算不算是中華民國的國民呢?這是一個很吊詭的問題,它的答案同樣也很吊詭。許多人華僑持著中華民國的護照進來臺灣,可是,當來到臺灣卻發現一個嚴重的問題:如果他們不具有依親、工作、就學,也未曾在臺灣境內設籍過,他們是不被允許設籍的!也就是說,他們不被允許具有國民的法定身份,所以在臺灣只能停留特定時間(就算有中華民國護照又如何?你就是不能在中華民國定居),更不用說加入健保囉,那是完全不可能的事!

因為在臺灣只能停留特定期間就要出境,有些人乾脆以「不合法身份」逾期停留,然後沒有有效證件、不能申請流動人口或是居留證,變成一個沒有「有效」身份的人。更有趣的是,如果要恢復他們的有效證件,重新拿到中華民國護照,必須要自備機票出境,然後被限制入境才能取得。有些人會想問,那他乾脆去拿居住國或出生國的護照就好了,不就一切都解決了?

可惜的是,他們通常不具備「雙重國籍」的身份,也就是說,在出生國所持的也只是居留證而已,並不具備該國的國民身份。說到底,他們的國籍似乎是中華民國呢,拿的是中華民國的護照,卻沒有在中華民國土地上合法生存的資格!!!那做什麼政府要發給這些人護照,允許他們進入我們的國土,承認他應該也算是我們的國民,卻,不給他們生存的要件。而這些人因為是【國民】所以也不能以非法居留遺送回國,因為他們的國籍是中華民國,只是這塊土地不要他們罷了。

這真是奇怪的思維,三不管地帶,出生國的辦事處不會協助他們,因為他們不是該國國民,他們是華僑,臺灣當地不會協助他們,因為護照過期了,不算是有效國民身份。那麼,這個國際孤兒到底該被踼到哪兒去呢?超級無解的。
---------------Felicia 抒於戊子初夏之際
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地上大大的棋盤,攝於奧地利的薩爾茲堡,是否也是反映這樣的寫照?

Saturday, May 03, 2008

Who Can Count?

Who Can Count?
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"Everyone can count the seeds in an apple, only God can count the apples in a seed." The words was what I heard today. I love it! The pastor who said the words want us to plant the seed. U never know what will the seed grow like, noly God know it. Today, I also send the letter to my friend for help. I knew that I lost my patience with people. I cna't see the value which should be priceless in people.

Lord, I pray I could see the way U see the people. For I know that U love them so much. The amazing grace which U had given is so great! Leading me to have the heart U have. Lord, thank U always be with me, even though I forgot it, U still be with me. In Jesus' name I pray, A-men.

-------------Felicia on May.03.2008

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Nei-Wan~內灣行

Nei-Wan~內灣行
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Well, about 2 years ago, I and my co-workers visited the city. I want to eat some food of the city, Milk Rice Cake( Milk Mochi), but when we arrived the city, the store had closed! For we had left for another city, it was so pity that I couldn't eat the food! Today, my new co-worker visited the city with me. We were not only enjoy the food, but also had a good time. This is a nice city~ Nei Wan!
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到內灣喲,基本上算是我嘴饞吧,一直想再回去吃鮮奶麻薯。上次考核路過時,太晚到內灣了,店家都關門,而隔日要一早上山去,也沒機會品嚐,所以.....一直念念不忘咩。剛好同事也是個喜歡四處跑的人,聽我如此說,就決定一同訪內灣去。

清晨一早到了內灣,果然,店家都還沒開張,所以我們就先往山上走去,說真的除了剛上來的地方之外,它的路況並沒有很好,增添了一筆「冒險」的色彩在內。大膽的我們,就二個人興緻沖沖地往山中探險去囉!沿途遇上登山隊的人下山,說前面路況不佳,不過從涼亭過去會有一條小路可以繞過去。聽是聽得懂,但是,我們還是錯過了提示,幸好,折回時遇上一對夫婦,他們夫婦兩就陪著我們兩個小姑娘探險去,還來這條路也是他們第一次走呢。出了山路,來到冰涼的溪水中玩耍,說真的,水真的很冰,很舒服喲。回到老街,一路上東吃吃西吃吃,什麼黑皮臭豆腐、孩堤時的巴甫、當然怎能錯過鮮奶麻薯、客家風味餐,唔.......肚子真的吃得很撐,然後轉站去劉興欽的漫畫暨發明館。說真的,我對這個漫畫家很不熟,不過大家都說他是個名人,就去走一走囉。走一圈之後,挺配服這個漫畫家的,他的異想天空沒有被扼殺掉,反而發展出個人很獨特的風格,讓我想到我可愛的小姪子(說可愛也很奇怪,因為他都唸高中了),希望他也能像劉漫畫家一樣,常保赤子及一顆活潑創造之心。 ========Felcia 予戊子清明過後訪內灣

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

生病VS就醫權

生病VS就醫權
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臺灣算是少數擁有全民醫療保險,也就是我們的全民健保,的國家。它讓人很容易親近醫療體系,在各個醫院秉持著救人的立意之下,醫院是不能拒絕病患的,不然,隔天媒體就會砲轟得它無地可容。所以,生在臺灣很幸福,只要有全民健保卡,看病住院就醫,就幾乎不用花太多錢。但針對那些沒有全民健保的人呢?

在臺灣,生病的人幾乎有就醫權,醫院不能拒絕你去看病,不管你有沒有錢,所以就有一些人很義正嚴詞地跟批價櫃台說:「你不能因為我沒錢,就不給我藥!」真是冠冕堂皇的好理由啊。有時真讓我覺得我們這些乖乖繳健保、看病乖乖給錢的人,真是有夠笨地!有些人更佯裝身體不適,把119當計程車在坐,每隔兩三天就到急診報到,不單是醫院不能拒絕他們,更因為他們把醫院當成旅舍,有地方休息、有人照料又可以耍賴不用付錢,因為他們沒錢咩。然後就要出動政府的福利資源來幫他們,不論是急難救助金、生活津貼、醫療補助、看護補助還是取得福利身份每個月固定領一筆錢,還在說不夠用,有些人明明沒有錢,卻堅持不用健保給付的東西,硬要用自費的材料,想當然爾,到時再叫政府資源介入就好了?每每都會覺得,天啊,為什麼我乖乖繳稅的錢,被他們這樣子花掉?

好多的衝突在人的價值上,我的信仰告訴我:每個人都是重價贖回的,因著基督的寶血;每個人都是尊貴的,因有神形象在他們身上。然而在看到福利無賴時,我實在好難去看到我信仰所告知我的「人」。

今晚看怪醫黑傑克時,我問室友對這位密醫的做法有何想法時,我很清礎知道,我對現行不依「使用者付費」者,真的感到很厭煩。也許人總有落難需人家伸出援手之際,但對於只想依賴他人的援手,而不想自己去做些什麼的人,我覺得真的很厭煩。有人說,不要去想就會比較好過了,但是,這些也都是全民買單的,不是嗎?助人很好,但如果助人到最後無法使人自助,反變成要求他人一定要協助者,這真的可以說是正常的嗎?超級不喜歡的。起初的愛心?也許會被約翰批評我把它給丟了也不一定。

-------------------Felicia於戊子春沉浸於要不要找回起初愛心的矛盾中

Monday, March 10, 2008

searching....

Searching....
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I feel so anxious. Everyone asked me what to do. This is the frist time we got the situation. I need pray to keep me walk on. Today, when I left the police station, I feel sick. Still thank for my co-worker who was with me.

I have to search a call to let me hold on. I got the letter from my friend, Susan, which told me about her 5 years' working:
"On March 10th, 2003 I arrived at GFA in Stoney Creek, Ontario - quiet, timid, shy, insecure, unsure of what I was getting myself into, yet knowing the Lord was calling me here for a season."

"unsure of what I was getting myself into" so am I. = =

Jer 32:27 “Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh: is there any thing too hard for me?”

----Felicia on 2008.03.10

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Oh! Chi si vede! Mio PDA

Oh! Chi si vede! Mio PDA
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I am so happy! This is a blessing! Who can image that my PDA could work again! After more than 7 months, it works again! I told myself again and again: " Give it up! Give it up!" I bought it since 2000. It wroked with me for a long time. Something wrong in last Aug., I tried to reset it. Since that monent, it doesn't work anymore. I felt so sad, and tried to fix it. Nomatter what I had done, it doesn't work anymore. Right Now, this Chinese New Year vacation, it works again! what a blessing it is!

天啊,真是不敢相信,在一個誤打誤撞的機會之下,那罷機已久的PPDA竟然被RESET成功了。本來一直處於當機狀態的畫面,動也不動,不管我試了多少方法以及按了多少次重置鍵,它一直當在初始畫面的狀態竟然解除了!我心愛的PDA又再次可以作業了。簡直是不敢置信,都七個多月了,多少次跟自己說應該要放棄了,但又捨不得,它跟了我那麼多年了,不是說可以割捨就割捨得掉的。沒想到,它又可以再陪伴我下去了。說真的,這幾個月少了它,很多事都覺得綁手綁腳的,一直以為它對我是沒有太大影響力的,但實際上卻不然。真高興它又回來了,我心愛的Palm Vx.

-------------Felicia欣喜於戊子新春中

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Be Good to Yourself, Girls

Be Good to Yourself, Girls
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Today, I saw a girl who suicided. She told to me, she will do it again. She feel so painful just because her boyfriend didn't believe her and would like to say goodbye to her. I feel sad not because she put her hope and life on the other person, but also she totally forget she have a little boy, who is only 11. The little boy also want to suicide because he though that's the only way could be together with his mother. I feel so sad for the girl doesn't want to be good for herself.我想,我很難去暸解為什麼有人要去為情自殺。雖然這樣的理由常在社會新聞中一再地被報導。也許是因為我從來不認為死了就一了百了,而是確認死後人人要面臨審判。而一但面對審判的時刻到來,就什麼也無法補救了,唯一的機會~『生』,已經被用掉了。

今日遇上這位自殺未遂者,感覺心痛的是在小孩身上,再次看到被逼著成為大人的小孩,只因為母親將自己變成虛弱到不行的狀態,四處向人索求幸福,導致小孩被迫成長。有句話提到:「女子柔弱,為母則強。」我卻一點都看不出來這個母親想要「強」起來保護兒子,只想要將「弱」表達出來。也許情感的糾葛一向離我甚遠,只是,為什麼不多為自己疼惜一點,只想要控制他人來疼惜自己呢?女孩子真的沒有能力好好對待自己嗎?

也許,女孩子們在社會上被定義著需要向他人索求溫情,同時也被定義著要釋放溫情予某一特定的人。這樣的定義讓很多女孩子只見到情人,而忘了自己是可以擁有手帕交的。同時,也忘了自己可以有自己的生活圈,進而好好享受自己的生活。也許,自己一個人生活沒有想像中的瀟灑、自在,也沒法子幾乎24小時黏著某人索求溫情。這樣就會造成自殺的緣由嗎?個人覺得,身為女孩子應該好好學習多疼愛自己一點,手帕交多一點,生活多享受一點,為自己的疼借多努力一點。

------------Felicia於丁亥歲末感嘆中-----